Letter from Broken Heart

Dear reader,

Every human body has heart and God has created a heart with a lot of care and emotions. One of many of billions of heart around; I am one of them in this human body with various feeling and being a lifeline for human body… Yes, I am Heart.

Today I am here to say something about me and how it feels within, yes within my heart of your heart. I may sound sad and more of upset so I would say sorry well in advance for disturbing you on such lovely day as I came up with thought to write in down and express my feeling here to lighten up my inner-myself. I want you all to know how it feels within when your heart breaks i.e. me; what all goes within me, why does it go within me and how does it go around me.

Everyone has a saturation point and a point of tolerance until then it can stay strong, act strongly; henceforth it can’t bear the consequences of pain induces from within yes, within your body i.e. from me and within me i.e. the heart of me. The intensity of pain is much deeper and much harder inside me than you feel outside. I try to control the level of intensity so that you, a human would feel less and I get all the pain within without releasing much for you.

Yes, I have reached that last point of tolerance within me. I have to take it out but I also have to take care of you too. My heart is getting heavier and heavier with each passing day as the mind of this human body is keeping so many thoughts within which is causing so much burden within me

When I break into pieces; it feels more pricklier than most sharpest thorn in world, it sounds more than a millions of acute clink of any glass shattering noise, it cries loudest with the mightiest strength still sounds so silent outside, it bleeds with the minute deep real cell of true blood but still cannot be seen outside, even my whole part broken down into hundreds of thousands of pieces; my pain and sadness gets multiplied proportionate to number of pieces but still cannot be expressed appropriately to outside world.

My every tiny little piece also becomes an individual heart of its own but as we all have to function as a whole collectively for the human body; I try to collect those pieces by pieces and try to mend them together within me again. Sometimes this collecting and mending together take me more than one month or even more than a year; and in some case, it goes on till the end of life. My pace of mending pieces together depends on the mind taking it up and neutralizing, rationalizing and moving on with it.

In my case, honestly, I have no idea what’s ahead? Because I have been shattered so badly and in such a worse state which made mind to completely shut down and I have been receiving no signal from him to go on or making me know, feel, see the outside world. Day by day, in this darkness; even the heart within me is losing its grace, feeling and wish to live more. It’s been so numb that even I myself couldn’t feel my heart within me.

The time it got so severely shattered, I could feel like that I am falling down to infinity space; I could feel like my broken pieces are also being broken into further smaller pieces and its again into tiny pieces and so on till the last particle of me and myself. Now that I am trying to mend together; it seems I will not be able to complete it as a whole within this lifetime as I am not only broken but a heart of mine too been broken. Yes, the hurt is much deeper than deepest I could ever imagine; the pain is much worse than bad I could have ever bear.

This time, mind says me to embrace to infinite sleep and not to get busy in collecting the pieces to mend them together and hoping for life. Even if with my quickest pace, I mend it all together; I won’t able to live life as it was earlier. It’s time to let all my pieces have their own deep feeling and reflect the memories of them; it’s time to let all my tiny pieces to feel heart for themselves; it’s time to let all my broken pieces to cry one more last time and bleed to its last cell of blood; it’s time to let them all embrace the pain till the last cell of them is alive; it’s time to let them all reflect on each other one last time; it’s time to let them all vent out the feeling outside to feel no soul within and yes, now it’s time for all of us to say good-bye forever.

Before I close my feel, my heart and shut down forever; I wish my human body to get lots of love, care, affection and all positive feeling in next birth with a new heart given by God. I wish you all my reader same.

Final Good-bye. Take care and have a lovely life ahead and wish you more in next birth.

Bye

With lots of love and care,

Your Heart

Love or Happiness

Once again, I am just wondering and pondering over what should be most important for me?

To win her love and feel back love

Or

To do anything for her happiness, her dream n all about her of life

My mind is going through many thoughts; like winning her love is giving her happiness too whereas my heart is having vice versa thought; giving her all happiness of life eventually will make you deserve her love too.

I literally for a moment, believed my mind because winning her love is not that easy as I would have to do anything and everything for her and deserve to be loved back by her. But then my heart had hiccup stating that when you expect to be loved back, it’s not real love; it will eventually become selfish love because you will always see what you are getting in return while you are doing so much in love.

For a moment, I then; focused on my heart speech. My heart is very clear; do anything for her happiness of life, do everything for her wish of life and make her believe that her dream will be reality because you will make it happen for her. And yes, don’t expect anything in return; Do all unconditionally, do all gracefully, do all with due respect of your love, do all as if you live life for her life and you feel happy in her happiness.

At one point, my mind is right but then at many points, my heart is far ahead of righteous thoughts.

I can win her love in many ways, but then the expectation of getting back more from her will dilute my trueness of love and purity of soul. Whereas I shall work harder and do anything without any selfish motive in heart for her life, her happiness, her wish, her dream and everything about her will mark my unconditional love for her as true and pure.

Doing everything to win her love might make you win her love but then chances are she might feel that love is not that true and not that pure and love been conditional where she might feel trapped within.

Doing everything to give her all of the happiness, caring, making her feel special, making her feel life as heavenly will eventually make you most deserving person of her love and she will truly love you back with the purest form of soul and that unconditional love will last till eternal.

Love her like no one else could in world

Win her like no one could defeat you in world

Be with her like no one could ever stand strong against you

Care for her like no one could ever come in her mind but you

Live for her like life is only for her and only through her

Die for her like the soul has the sole purpose to feel life only for her.

Do unconditionally

Care unselfishly

Live purely

and

Love truly

#Luv4u

Relationship Status

Relationship Status

• -          Single
• -          Married
• -          It’s Complicated
• -          In Love with
• -          Feeling blissful
• -          Engaged
• -          Open relationship
• -          In relation with
• -          And many more such status

We normally see/read/hear to know more about the person. Every person likes to express or show their relationship to the world because either they want someone special to have them in life or they want the whole world know that they are with someone special in their life and so on for any reason with respect to own individuals.

Personally speaking,

I love stating ‘Open relationship’ rather than saying ‘Single’ because ‘Open relationship’ gives the feeling to other that I am here with open arms and heart to embrace her for life and treasure her in my heart. ‘Single’ sounds more like I am alone and lonely here on earth and not able to express my best feeling of heart or not able to open with others to accept me in their life.

I love stating ‘In Love with’ rather than saying ‘Engaged’ because ‘In Love with’ gives me the excitement, courage, enthusiasm and loud shout-out to the world that yes, I am in love with her with whom I had decided to spend rest of my life. ‘Engaged’ sounds more like you were not fully given your heart and soul to another person; and still on the constant insecurity of relationship or say constant fear of breaking out from this bonding.

I love stating ‘In relation with’ rather than saying ‘Married’ because ‘In relation with’ gives the feeling of my heart connected with her, my soul living for her and my life is very much related with her, her happiness, her love, her wish and everything about her. ‘Married’ sounds more like you been into another person by law or ritual or so; but not by self or not my own soul; you haven’t feel connected your soul with other person and haven’t able to feel like soul-mates till eternity.

But I am not here to state about my personal preference to express relationship status; I am here to let my reader know that we can describe, express, feel, and live with relationship status which can give us equally positive, equally exciting, equally enthusiastic, and equally lively feeling in our heart and soul inside as it seems to the world outside. We can let outside world know our own relationship status which is equally true and pure inside our heart.

Relationship status are not just status but the bonding of two people which should be true, pure, positive, heartfelt and soul-driven till eternity hence before announcing or letting the world know about your relationship status make sure you are sending out a positive and true vibe about yourself and your relation of present/future.