Expectation

I came here again with yet another expectation; expectation that more and more reader will read this blog, expectation that more and more reader will like this blog, expectation that more and more reader will fall in love with me as a writer again, expectation that more and more reader will have lasting impression after reading my blog.

But, my dear friends; honestly speaking expectation hurts a lot, in fact sometimes it even tears apart my inner soul. The expectation is what you think will happen, making you assume it will happen as perfectly as you imagine but then any slight change or minor deviation, in reality, it hurts your heart deeply leaving the ugliest scar to keep you reminding about consequences.

I am not here for blame-game but the harsh truth is, it's wholly the fault of heart and feeling it has developed over a period of time for near-and-dear ones within.  Yes, the stronger the bonding, the more expectation I have; the closer the relationship, the deeper the expectation is and above all, these more and deeper expectations always have equally proportionate inversely effect by wounding my heart.

You need to trust me as I am not saying all this out of my imagination, but I am saying all this out of my experience; the bitter and harsh ones in my life.

The one I am expecting from family and the one, my family expecting from me which in-turn again makes me expect other few things from them; it hard to know that life reveals bitter truth making me unable to cope up with same. The one I am expecting from my friends, but then they show me real face of their personality which throws up their action and thoughts in reality. The one I am expecting from my love; but then again, life strikes me hard when I came to know that the feeling I knew as true love and the feeling I got to knew as real feeling from my love are very different which my heart cannot grasp nor cannot take it within.

The hardest, harsh and most bitter consequences to bear by my heart and soul is from my love; secondly from family and lastly from friends. And yes, it is true as deeper the relation, I got hit to rock bottom harder with the consequences of unfulfilled expectation

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Yes, I am been trying to avoid expecting but that is not the natural me or say that is no way god made me. It is not my fault; its how God had made my heart and filled it with a lot of feeling and relationship within. Yes, I am fed up with the not expecting and then fighting against heart for not to expect and then again having battle with mind and heart and then again yelling within so loud that all thoughts within such that it is not heard by my ears or inner soul and yes, more I try to be natural and try to act normal; more I fall into this trap and weigh myself heavier and heavier beyond my limit and capability.

Expectation vs Reality is the harsh truth; I am still learning and yes, it is true I am still trying to cope up with many of such phase. I am not blaming people for disappointing me. I take the blame on myself for expecting too much. It is rightly said by William Shakespear “Expectation is the root of all heartache” and believe me; this heartache is much more painful than heartbreak.

And lastly “Expectation feeds frustration. It is an unhealthy attachment to people, things, and outcomes. I wish I could control, but couldn’t” 

Dream

Dream… Dream is what we all see with closed eyes as well as open eyes; Dream is what we all wish and desire for ourselves as well as for our dear ones; Dream is what makes you feel happy, blissful, special as well as haunted, depressed and upset; Dream is what stays in imagination of mind for a long time as well as disappears like a puff in the air within seconds.

And again yes, dream I see would be different than yours; dream rich people see would be different than lesser rich than poor people; dream which a baby see would be different than that of teenager than that of adult than that of old-age people and it also holds true that dream has its own individuality, its own perception, its own meaning and its own sense of uniqueness to that one person who sees it.

Dream of love, Dream of fame, Dream of money, Dream of being successful, Dream of magic, Dream of fantasy, Dream of being like their idol figure, Dream of future as well as of beautiful past, and yes, while reading this, some might have dream of being a writer too. Each one of us has different dreams at a different phase of life and each dream signifies the importance and priority of phase we are going through in life.

Dreams as we see ourselves in leading newspaper and magazines; Dream as we see to believe miracles shown in movies; Dreams as we see to feel the positive vibes from successful person; Dreams as we see to work for turning into reality; Dreams as we see to imagine having perfect life always; and Dreams as we see travelling the most idealistic journey till end.

There are dreams which you wish to dream again and again every night; there are dreams which make you feel excited to wake up; there are dreams which you makes you work harder; there are dreams which make you believe in yourself; there are dreams which you want to achieve in reality and yes, there is dream of all these dreams always.

I am sure many of you, in fact, all of you including me, yes; is and always sees such dreams for ourselves during daytime or night-time; irrespective of time of our dreams, it is for sure makes us feel best interest in our one life which have only one chance to live on earth.

Again irrespective of dreams you see, point here is to believe in your dreams, be determined to turn your dream into reality, work for your own dream else someone else will make you work for their, you have one life and one chance to fulfill your dream and make it true, you can see heaven in dream as well as can create that heavenly paradise on earth too for yourself.

Dreams are not just imagination; dreams are your inner-instinct, your inner-voice, your wish, your imagination of perfect life, your thought-provoking action, your inspiration and aspiration; above all dream is your destiny.

Remember, to see yourself with open eyes in reality same as you see yourself with closed eyes in dreams; you need to work harder than hardest, stay determined and focused till you make it happen in reality.

Lastly,

“Dream is just not a dream; it is one more life we are living for ourselves”